Sunday, December 28, 2003
weehaaa!!!
So...these last couple of days have been very interesting, to say the least. Friday i met Elyce and her sister up at the mall to do some shopping. We shopped, got movies, then went back to her grandma's house to spend the night since she is out of town. well, elyce's friend Jason shows up at like, 9:30 and he's loaded down with a large amount of alcohol. needless to say, i got wasted. i have never been so drunk in all my life. And im sitting there and these 2 guys walk in. i think i asked them about 50 times what their names were. they go to lanesville. pretty cute too. There;s alot of stuff i dont remember. i remember talking to jason shumate on the phone at like..1am. what we talked about i have no clue. i was feeling pretty good when i got up this morning. but then it hit me. ive never had a hangover before and i threw up about 2 times. it was bad. i kept eating bread which eventually made me feel better. then elyce and i went to wal mart. i still couldnt walk and i had no clue where i was at. plus we both looked like crap. then, of all people to see in my post-drunken stupor, i see Joey. he laughed at me. we were all supposed to go skating tonight, but those plans fell through. So while we're contemplating on what to do, scott calls. so, we end up getting ready and going to daniel's house and going out to eat. that was quite an adventure. it was me. elyce, scott davis, scott jones, daniel, and greg. no one could decide on what movie to see, so we all went back to daniel's house to watch movies. then, we played truth or dare. believe me, you havent seen anything until you've seen scott and scott do the "Im a Little Teapot" dance in their underwear. oh boy. neways..i just now got home. I really hope i didnt do anything too stupid last night. i dont remember half of what jason and i talked about on the phone. who knows. im dead tired and im dehydrated. i want a glass of water.
Posted at 01:31 am by sarah2804
Thursday, December 25, 2003
ITS CHRISTMAS TIME AGAIN...
Well, I made out pretty good today. I had a better day than i did yesterday, that's for sure. I got everything i put on my list. well, all except for the new Thrice cd. But that's ok. I still got Brand New, Dashboard, John Mayer, and No Doubt:The Singles. pretty awesome. expecially since my dashboard cd came with a dvd. score for me! I got every book on my book list. Plus, a new stereo system for my car, which included a cd player and 2 10" subwoofers! yes! Dad is taking it to be installed while i'm in texas. Im starting to look forward to Texas a little more each day. especailly since my uncle just told me its been in the high 60s to mid 70s down there. That's alot better than the depressing weather we're having here.
neways, i was doing really good today until i got to my g-ma's house. i enjoy being over there a lot more than the other side of the family. but still, i just felt alone. both of my cousins came with their new husbands. its weird seeing as how one's 22 and the other's 20. here i am, almost 18 years old, and i have no one. i'll probably end up old, alone, and living in the woods with my cat. my luck. Maybe i just let things get to me too much. i dont know. and now i'm going to spend new years alone. thats me major reason i dont want to go to texas. to much alone-ness. and now, for some really wrong reason i want to talk to sean again. i dont know. i do stupid things when i feel depressed. and right nw i want to talk to sean. but, i know that will open up alot more shit than i need right now. i already unblocked him from my buddy list. that is definately not good at all. i dont know, i dont want to screw up. i know i will. this Brand New cd is great. everyone should have it. I would also like to thank jason for the wonderful voice mails that he leaves me at 2 am. they, uh, brighten my day. lol. really, they do. thanks jason. I guess i don't really have that much to say. I need to put this link on my old journal so the whole 4 people who read it will go here instead. well, im done writing.
Posted at 10:59 pm by sarah2804
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
i hate the holidays...
I'm definately not a big fan of the holidays. I used to be. For some reason i'm just not in the spirit. Usually i just want to be left alone. However, i think i have secluded myself too much. Now i just feel lonely. I feel like everyone else is out having a good time and here i sit. The only people who call me are elyce, amber, and scott. Which isnt too bad cause I couldn't ask for better friends, but, i feel secluded. I really do try to be happy, because i know that things could be much worse. The holidays just arent what they used to be. I'll be 18 in less than two weeks, but I feel like i'm getting too old to do certain things. I think that may be part of my problem. It's officially Christmas morning. It just doesn't feel like Christmas to me. I also don't want to leave for Texas. I'm really glad to be going and everything, but i just don't want to leave. I want to spend New Year's at home with my friends. Instead I'll be in Texas with a bunch of rich people. And once again i'll be alone. The holidays always make me depressed. Any other time i'm out having fun with my friends, but its times like these that i want someone special to spend time with. It's really starting to get to me. I shouldn't let it, but I do. I feel like no one wants me and that i'm destined to spend the rest of my life alone. I think it's because i'm a hopeless romantic and i think that too often i find myself looking in all the wrong places and finding the wrong person. I want to have that fairy tale romance. Unfortunately, i dont think those exist anymore. Even if they did it probably wouldnt happen to me. Good things never happen to me. I either get walked on, cheated on, or just left behind. And just when things couldn't get much worse, they do. Please God, let me be happy, just for once.
...........PS: Merry Christmas
Posted at 11:23 pm by sarah2804
