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Saturday, January 17, 2004
i think im....
overdramatic!!!...seriously. i freak out over the smallest things sometimes and it drives me crazy. I may not make the smartest decisions sometimes, but, there really arent any horrific, fatal consequences. i just need to lighten up. alot. i need to be carefree and not worrysome. i worry over everything and i blow it all up bigger than what it really is. i wish there was a support group for over dramaticists. is that even right? is that even a word? i dont know. on a better note, i got my acceptance letter from U of L. I was so nervous and scared that i wouldnt get in, but, i didnt have any problem. i really am a good kid. last night me, elyce, scott, and quincy went out to eat. it took us forever to decide what we were going to do next, but, we finally ended up at Trixie's. yeah, that was an experience. ive never seen a real naked girl in person..and there were about 20 walking around. im still in shock. scott is disappointed because he didnt get his lap dance. the weather was getting bad so we decided to call it a night around 1am. the guys at the table beside of us paid for a table dance. whoa, that was scary. this chick takes off her clothes, gets on the table, and just starts dancing and stuff. yeah, i was closer than i cared to be. tonight amber and i were going to go to bloomington, but, i think im coming down with something so i dont really feel like going. im going to see if she wants to do something else instead. well, i guess thats all for now. later!
Posted at 01:35 pm by sarah2804
Sunday, January 11, 2004
Ficken Sie ab!
haha..German is an awesome language. so my weekend was pretty good. friday night my mom took amber and i out to eat. after i got home elyce came over and me and her went to daniel's house to hang out with him and scott. we watched a couple of movies, i got pretty inebriated. scott and elyce drank too, but not as much as i did. the sleeping arrangements were pretty interesting. scott slept in the bed between me and elyce. then daniel joined us. scott had to hold me in the bed, a few mintues later we decided that probably wasnt the safest was to sleep. elyce and i got the bed, they got the floor. i didnt sleep very well. then scott woke me up when he was getting ready for work and i couldnt go back to sleep. oh well. saturday elyce and i went to clarksville, went out to eat, got new nose studs and shopped a little bit. we were going to go to the movies, but that didnt work out. i ended up going to the movies with scott, scott, and daniel. that was pretty fun. scott doesnt work anymore, so i figure i'll be seeing alot more of him. thats nice. i only used to se him like, 2 times a month, sometimes not even that. neways, i didnt do much today. i got home late/early, so i slept till like noon. i went over to ambers for a little bit. my tattoo is finally starting to peel and my nose is finally healing up. thats a plus. it hurts. well, im going to go. later!
Posted at 08:23 pm by sarah2804
Friday, January 09, 2004
yay snow day!
yay for snow days. i only slept till 930, but still, its all good. so, tonight mom is taking me and amber out for my birthday. then i have to wait for scott to call cause daniel's parents are out of town for the weekend and i think im spending the night over there. he said last night that everything was still on, so hes supposed to call me later and let me know for sure. right now im really bored. i have been watching the lifetime channel since 9:30 this morning. oh boy. and my nose really hurts. i dont regret doing it or anything, its just kinda puffy on the inside and it hurts. it kinda feels like the skin on the inside of my nose is trying to grow over it. i hope not. i like it. hopefully the swelling will go down by next week. and my tattoo is now itching, which is a good sign. then it'll peel and everything will be good. i hope. i really like my tattoo. well, im going to get back to the lifetime channel. later!
Posted at 01:56 pm by sarah2804
Tuesday, January 06, 2004
i have the biggest balls of them all!!
Today was very fun. even school was ok. i cannot believe how easy my schedule is. i might as well just go home after lunch, i dont have a real class after that. hell, i dont even have a real class before lunch. i have english 1st period and government 2nd. i should just go home after 2nd. those are the only 2 classes i need anyways. elyce came over after school and took me out for my birthday. we went to wal mart and got nose studs then went over to preston highway in louisville and got our noses pierced. i was so nervous, but it didnt hurt at all. it just felt like getting my ears pierced. hers looks really good too. it doesnt even hurt the slightest bit. im surprised. then we went out to eat and went back to wal mart to get rubbing alcohol. we had to buy little round band-aids to cover them up cause i cant have it at school and she cant have it at work. but all in all its great. its very natural feeling. i forget i have it done. we ran into greg mosier at wal mart and i think we got elyce talked into geting a tattoo also. greg is going to be in the studio tomorrow, so we're going down there to "look" after i get out of school. i out look in parenthesis because when i went in there thats all i had planned to do too. it never works out that way. amber, if you read this and wont to "look" too, let me know. itll be our little secret. lol. i just finished typing my homework for sturgeon. now i have to go clean my tattoo, clean my nose, take a shower, and go to bed. im tired. im not dressing up tomorrow. looks like cotton pants and a hoodie for me! yay! neways...im off to bed! night!!
Posted at 10:26 pm by sarah2804
Monday, January 05, 2004
I DID IT!! I DID IT!!
I got my first tattoo!! woohoo! im so excited. it was a surprise cause my dad told me that he made me an appointment for wednesday and that we were just going out to dinner. well, then we went to the parloe and he said we were just looking, but, i did it! i was shaking so bad cause i was afraid that it would hurt. it was awesome. it tingled kinda like a massage. every now and then i could feel a slight prick, like a safety pin, but that was about it. becca's boyfriend greg drew up my design and waited with me till it was done. it turned out awesome. its the right size, color, and everything. tomorrow im getting my nose pierced..i think. if i dont chicken out. scott really doesnt want me to do it..so..i dont know. neways..the first day back to school wasnt so bad. my classes are soo easy. well, all except english. i never did like that class. i have a worksheet to do for group discussion, but, i'll do it before school. its not much. hopefully this year will fly by. well, i better go.
LOOK:: Im Paranoid!
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate
Posted at 09:16 pm by sarah2804
Sunday, January 04, 2004
WOOHOO IM BAAAAACK!!
YEEHAW! im finally back from texas. my plane landed in indy on time and i got home around 3:00. i had so much fun on this trip. part of me even wanted to stay there. no matter what time of day or night, the temperature enver dropped below 70. it was so nice. the first night there we just went out to eat since we arrived later in the evening. New Year's Eve was probably the best day. we had lunch at this awesome Italian restaurant. that was the awesome thing about going down there. my uncle does not cook, at all. every meal we ate out. now, up here, going out to eat would be like, O charley's or buckheads...but, my uncle's view of going out to eat is making reservations 2 days in advance. every restaurant we ate at was big and expensive. it was nice. anyways...for new years eve we went to Medieval Times. it cost $75 a person, but it was well worth it. it was the coolest thing ive ever seen in my life. you eat at these big tables around this big arena and the knights joust. it was awesome. not to mention the knights were hott. after, they had a DJ and a big dance party till 2am. it was great. i had so much fun. thursday we went out to some places and then watched football. ive never watched so much football in my whole life, but it was ok. friday's activities included a 10 mile bike ride around White Rock Lake, a tour of the JFK memorial museum, ice skating, and shopping. and whoa, shopping was the best part. this mall was 3 levels, had an ice rink, and its own hotel. and, this isnt just any mall, its a full out designer mall. I was in heaven. i went to stores you only see in the movies. there was Louis Vattan, Gucci, Versace, BCBG, Cartier, Coach, Saks, and my favorite, Armani. I was in heaven in Armani. i bought a shirt and an awesome black handbag. i used to make fun of my mom for her purse fetish, but now, i fear that i have inherited it. oh well. you can never have too many handbags. saturday was just a chill day. saw some more sites, went to the movies. it was nice. i had a lot more fun than i expected to have, thats for sure. i got home and my dad was supposed to have made my tattoo appointment, but, he didnt. we went in and got the price like he was supposed to, but he didnt make the appointment. now thats put off for a day. oh well. wednesday night elyce is taking me to get my nose pierced. im going to be in so much pain this week. i cant believe its already my b-day. this week has flown by. and im actually excited about going back to school. i miss joey. i talked to him almost everyday i was in texas. hes awesome. neways...i think thats about all the info i have for now. im still perturbed that he didnt make my tattoo appt. hes going to call tomorrow, hopefully they can get me in either tomorrow or tuesday. i hope. well..i have to finish unpacking and take a shower and all that. so, later!
BTW::
I wonder what it's like to be like you
To never really care how bad it hurt
So go ahead and lie and keep movin on
It's all about yourself, you're never wrong
I'll watch you crash and burn
Posted at 08:39 pm by sarah2804
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
last entry for 5 days!!
So, i leave for texas in approximately 17 hours and 30 mintues. its not looking so bad now. i think i just need to get away from here for awhile. i get back on the 4th..and my birthday is on the 5th..so..thats not too bad. and then i'll have my tattoo and my nose pierced. thats exciting. i hope people call me while im gone. i'll kill myself if no one calls. that would be really depressing. well, i have to get up warl and finish packing some stuff..so, see you in 5 days!
Posted at 12:00 am by sarah2804
Monday, December 29, 2003
BAYSIDE!!!
"Just Enough To Love You"
Push me out from the darkness
To a sky that's colored blue
Somewhere someone's finding happiness
While I'm still here so hung up on you
Nothing is real
And I want you to know
That I'm not alright
When you tear open my chest
I'll try not to flinch
Won't make promises
You taught me that I'm still losing what's left out
My self esteem
And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams
The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
So I'll bite my tongue til it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know
The easiest thing to fake's a feeling to fool someone else
And I've been tricked for so long by you that I spent these last few months in my own hell
A failed apology
A day too late but now I see
That all you really want's to see me dangle neck first from a tree
But what would you need me for
You've got friends galore
And all you'll ever be to me's a stupid lying excuse for a person
There is this awesome up and coming band called Bayside. If you havent heard of them, check them out at Baysiderocks.com. Their new album, Sirens and Condolences comes out on Jan. 27, 2004. Be sure to pick it up! its great!
PS...you're a waste of time.
Posted at 08:35 pm by sarah2804
dashboard....
"Rapid Hope Loss"
You called to say you wanted out.
Well, I can't say I blame you now.
Sometimes you've got to fall
before you're found out.
Well thanks for waiting this long to show yourself.
Cause now that I can see you,
I don't think you're worth a second glance.
So much for all the promises you made, they served you well
and now you're gone and they're wasted on me.
So much for your endearing sense of charm, it served you well
and now you're gone and it's wasted on me.
Do what you must if that's what you wish,
I can't be a pardon to this
you have a sense that you were born with
You'll find a way to make things right.
I guess that all you got is all you're gonna get.
so much for, so much more
I guess that all you got is all you're gonna get.
so much for, so much more
...my dashboard dvd will not play on my computer. i am perturbed. it better play on my dvd player. i cant wait to leave for texas. things look more hopeful there.
Posted at 02:31 pm by sarah2804
Sunday, December 28, 2003
you've got to be kidding me.
So, i had heard stories that mr. huffman is really bad about sending off your transcripts on time. well, when i handed him my stuff and he said it'd be in the mail the next day, i believed him. boy was that ever stupid. he told me 3 weeks ago that my stuff would be in the mail the next day. so why the hell did i get this letter from U of L saying that they havent received my transcripts yet? will someone please explain this to me? i was expecting my acceptance/denial letter next week. now i have to wait until we go back to school to even ask him about this. this is bullshit. they set up there and preach to us for 3 years about how we need to have everything in on time. i busted my butt to get that application in and now look what he's gone and done. now what am i supposed to do? i cant even apply for housing until i get accepted. Louisville Hall fills up faster than any other dorm and if i get my letter too late then i am S.O.L. this has set me behind by about 5 weeks. i held up my part and i got my application in on time. there is no reason why our counselors cannot do their part. this is ridiculous. I am so incredibly pissed off right about now. he was supposed to send them in 3 weeks ago! 3 weeks! i dont even believe this.
So, maybe going to texas will be for the best. im perturbed at a couple of people, so maybe i do just need time away. i think i waste too much time on some people. you give them a second chance, and they blow it again. why am i even bothering? will i even be talking to this person (people) this time next year? probably not. so why am i even wasting my time now? its not like it matters. im just bothered by it. i hate the indirect answers. i hate you. i think i really do hate you. i dont want to hate you, but you make it impossible for me not to hate you. i hate being lied to. sometimes i feel like this is all a big joke to you. i wish i could find out for sure. but, with my luck, i'll never know. its only 10:13 pm..someone shoot me please.
Posted at 05:23 pm by sarah2804
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