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Tuesday, February 03, 2004
omg that kicked a**!!
Seriously, that was one of the best concerts i;ve seen in awhile. Motion City Soundtrack opened and totally rocked. It was amazing. and then came Sugarcult, definately blew me away. you have to go get their cd! Simple Plan kicked a** big time. Their show is so energetic and they perform so well. It was the 3rd time i'd seen them, and it was defiantely their best show. Before the doors opened we were wating outside and Jeff from SP was walking across the street so i yelled at him and he came over to us and me and amebr both got a pic with him. he's pretty cool..and he said he liked my Jon Bon Jovi pin. 5 bonus points for him. i got a pick from David and amber got one from Sebastien, but, we swtiched. and then scott got Chick's drunk stick. we were real close. i'll have to post one of amber's pics up here sometime. we didnt get home till 2 am, but it was well worth it. While we were up there we also bought tickets for the Mest/Matchbook Romance show on the 24th. thats going to rock too. and for even awesomer news..haha..awesomer..anways...elyce's boyfriend Jason got me and her 8th row seats for the John Mayer concert on March 12th. I'm so in love with John Mayer so its going to be so awesome. he has the best lips ever. i really should be studying for my Government test..but..we have a PBA day tomorrow and i know he wont let me take it. not enough time. so instead i'm just chilling here. wee. tomorrow elyce and i are going up to Asgard to see if we can get in to get our tattoos touched up. im excited. i love that tingly feeling the needle makes on my neck/back. wee! then i think we're going out for lunch. its going to be fun. someone said today that if the roads freeze tonight we might not even have school. that would be nice..but..with the shit string of luck i;ve been having lately, it wont happen. oh well.
I wonder what it's like to be like you
to never really care how bad it hurts
so go ahead and lie and keep moving on
it's all about yourself you're never wrong
I'll watch you crash and burn.
Posted at 10:33 pm by sarah2804
Monday, February 02, 2004
yay simple plan!!..
i thought i'd update real quick while im waiting for amber to get out of the shower. scott's supposed to be here around noon and then we're leaving for Cinci. It's real exciting. i'm just glad im not at school today. i dont think i could do it; i'm too perturbed. I just really don't understand. anyways, im not going to get into all that right now. it just makes me even more mad everytime i think about it. i'm just really excited about tonight. yay! well..i better go.
Posted at 10:19 am by sarah2804
Wednesday, January 28, 2004
blah blah blah
i am so frustrted. ggrrrr. i dont know. im just perturbed. first off, sean wont leave me alone. he just wont give up. all he keeps saying is, 'just give me one more chance, please....im going to kill myself..blah blah blah.' i dont believe him. not the least little bit. i know hes just doing it to get attention and sympathy from everyone and it really makes me mad. im just sick of it all. i keep blocking him and he keeps changing his sn. uuggghhh..then, katie and i had plans to work for greg at a concert he's putting on and now she says she cant go. we've had this planned for about 2 months now. for some reason shes acting all weird around me and becca. like shes jealous of us or something. i dont know. shes acting so weird and she makes little rude comments to us, i dont know what her deal is. it just bothers me. i havent had a very good day i guess. i'm perturbed about a few things. nothing i can really talk about on here, but, im still perturbed. people just get on my nerves. monday me scott and amber are going to Cinci for the simple plan concert. im looking forward to it. im ready to get away from here, even if it is just for a day. tonight elyce and i went to wal-mart. now im just sitting here. she gave me her new britney cd to burn, but my effing burner isnt working. no one is on here. i hate everyone. blah blah blah.
Posted at 08:59 pm by sarah2804
Tuesday, January 27, 2004
can we say PSYCHO??
yeah..so i tried to tell sean last night that i didnt want anything to do with him..and he keeps telling me its not over. i mean, seriously, whats he going to do about it? theres nothing he can do. anyways..heres the convo..see for yourself. i have no clue how i get myself into these messes.
Neo Tallgeese II (8:54:52 PM): hi
Afireinside2804 (8:54:56 PM): ?
Neo Tallgeese II (8:55:06 PM): too good to talk to me, are you?
Afireinside2804 (8:55:33 PM): i told you i didnt want to talk to you..its not that im too good..you dont know me, you wouldnt even know how i am.
Neo Tallgeese II (8:56:27 PM): then give me a fucking chance
Afireinside2804 (8:56:52 PM): no..you ask me the same stuff and im sick of it. ok?
Neo Tallgeese II (8:57:30 PM): fuck you, if you'd actually talk to me i wouldn't ask you the same shit
Afireinside2804 (8:57:58 PM): well..i told you i didnt want to talk about any of that but its all you seem to care about.
Neo Tallgeese II (8:58:20 PM): then just talk about whatever
Afireinside2804 (8:58:29 PM): no..
Neo Tallgeese II (9:00:22 PM): why?
Neo Tallgeese II (9:00:41 PM): what are you afraid of sarah?
Neo Tallgeese II (9:00:43 PM): huh?
Neo Tallgeese II (9:00:44 PM): what?
Afireinside2804 (9:00:51 PM): leave me alone
Neo Tallgeese II (9:01:03 PM): not until you tell me what the hell is going on
Neo Tallgeese II (9:01:16 PM): what the fuck happened to you?
Afireinside2804 (9:04:11 PM): i have other things going on..im over all of this
Neo Tallgeese II (9:04:32 PM): sarah, tell me what happened
Afireinside2804 (9:04:41 PM): leave me alone..seriously
Neo Tallgeese II (9:05:26 PM): no
Afireinside2804 (9:05:31 PM): um, oh i think so
Neo Tallgeese II (9:05:54 PM): sarah
Afireinside2804 (9:06:12 PM): what do you want from me?
Neo Tallgeese II (9:06:20 PM): i want to know what you're running from
Afireinside2804 (9:07:09 PM): im not running..i just want you to leave me alone
Neo Tallgeese II (9:07:33 PM): damnit sarah
Neo Tallgeese II (9:08:01 PM): you're basically the last person i have and you're turning your back on me
Afireinside2804 (9:08:18 PM): you want to know why?
Afireinside2804 (9:10:10 PM): because you're trying too hard to be my friend. you ask me the same things and all it feels like you're doing is trying to get sympathy. i dont care about your exs and i dont care why they broke up with you. it has nothing to do with me. it seems like you're trying to get me back and thats not going to happen. im going away for college and im out with my friends. i dont need this. just leave me alone..
Neo Tallgeese II (9:10:40 PM): lol, why won't i get you back?
Afireinside2804 (9:11:29 PM): because im over it. and you should be too. i have no feelings for you. we hadn't even dated a week. just let me go.
Neo Tallgeese II (9:12:20 PM): you have absolutely no feelings for me at all?
Afireinside2804 (9:13:02 PM): no..i dont. im not going to make it seem like i do and that theres a chance of us getting back together..because theres not. im doing my own thing and im for once im happy.
Neo Tallgeese II (9:13:25 PM): you don't seem happy
Afireinside2804 (9:13:54 PM): oh im real sure you can tell. you have no clue whats going on in my life, you wouldnt even know.
Neo Tallgeese II (9:14:06 PM): then let me know
Afireinside2804 (9:14:33 PM): no. my life is none of your business. im out doing things and having fun. just let me go.
Neo Tallgeese II (9:15:15 PM): i'm not letting you go, but i'm more than willing to let the past go
Neo Tallgeese II (9:15:17 PM): will that do?
Afireinside2804 (9:15:19 PM): no
Afireinside2804 (9:15:21 PM): it wont
Neo Tallgeese II (9:15:39 PM): stop being such a little wretch and give me a chance
Afireinside2804 (9:16:42 PM): um, excuse me? you;re not even going to talk to me like that. i dont need your bullshit. ok? you're dragging too much drama into this. you dont know me, you never really knew me, and youre not going to get to know me. let it go.
Neo Tallgeese II (9:17:16 PM): no
Afireinside2804 (9:17:21 PM): oh i think so.
Neo Tallgeese II (9:17:29 PM): you're being a brat and i don't go for that
Afireinside2804 (9:17:43 PM): yeah well, im not taking your bullshit. just leave me alone
Neo Tallgeese II (9:17:59 PM): you're just some self-righteous little girl who thinks she's all grown up now
Afireinside2804 (9:18:27 PM): oh really?..lol, you dont know who the fuck i am. get over it and leave me alone.
Neo Tallgeese II (9:18:37 PM): lol, no
Afireinside2804 (9:19:11 PM): and, really, what are you going to do about it? theres nothing you can do. get over it. i did.
Neo Tallgeese II (9:19:25 PM): then just talk to me
Afireinside2804 (9:19:28 PM): no
Afireinside2804 (9:19:42 PM): i dont want to talk to you..i dont want anything to do with you..ok/
Neo Tallgeese II (9:19:47 PM): no
Afireinside2804 (9:20:27 PM): why do you keep saying that? you think thats going to stop me? theres nothing you can do about it. im over it and ive got other things going. let it go.
Neo Tallgeese II (9:20:45 PM): i'm not giving up
Afireinside2804 (9:21:40 PM): why not? you're just making me even more mad by talking to me. there will never be an 'us'. never. its over, its done. get over it
Afireinside2804 (9:21:46 PM): you dont even know me
Neo Tallgeese II (9:21:54 PM): i don't care about an 'us'
Afireinside2804 (9:21:56 PM): it cant be that hard
Afireinside2804 (9:22:09 PM): oh whatever.
Neo Tallgeese II (9:22:21 PM): i just want a friend
Afireinside2804 (9:22:28 PM): well..you've done lost that.
Neo Tallgeese II (9:22:35 PM): i can get it back
Afireinside2804 (9:22:44 PM): no you cant. why do you keep saying that?
Afireinside2804 (9:22:56 PM): i dont want it...youre not getting it back
Afireinside2804 (9:23:03 PM): theres nothing you can do about that
Neo Tallgeese II (9:23:07 PM): oh well
Neo Tallgeese II (9:23:23 PM): you realize you can avoid all of this nonsense by just saying okay and talking
Afireinside2804 (9:23:54 PM): sean..i dont want to talk to you. i dont want anything to do with you. what dont you understand about that?
Neo Tallgeese II (9:24:10 PM): i understand it, i just don't agree with it
Afireinside2804 (9:24:35 PM): well thats your problem, not mine. you can disagree with it all you want but thats not going to change things.
Afireinside2804 (9:24:52 PM): i have to go..im expecting a call.
Neo Tallgeese II (9:25:03 PM): hold on a sec
Afireinside2804 (9:25:04 PM): no
Neo Tallgeese II (9:25:09 PM): sarah, just hear me out
Afireinside2804 (9:25:21 PM): ive heard you enough. i have to go.
Neo Tallgeese II (9:25:26 PM): sarah, come on
Afireinside2804 (9:25:48 PM): no..seriously. im done with all of this. just let it go
Neo Tallgeese II (9:25:52 PM): no
Neo Tallgeese II (9:25:56 PM): just give me a chance
Neo Tallgeese II (9:26:01 PM): i swear, i can be normal
Afireinside2804 (9:26:19 PM): no. ive given you enough chances. you dont even know me or what im like. just get over it.
Neo Tallgeese II (9:26:28 PM): sarah
Neo Tallgeese II (9:26:34 PM): you gave me 1 chance
Neo Tallgeese II (9:26:36 PM): that's not enough
Afireinside2804 (9:26:49 PM): its enough for me.
Neo Tallgeese II (9:26:58 PM): oh well, i deserve at least one more
Afireinside2804 (9:27:19 PM): no. im not going to be your friend. you've done lost it. just let it go
Neo Tallgeese II (9:27:28 PM): no damnit
Afireinside2804 (9:27:31 PM): yes
Afireinside2804 (9:27:37 PM): why do you keep saying no>?
Afireinside2804 (9:27:42 PM): its not helping any.
Neo Tallgeese II (9:27:46 PM): i don't care
Afireinside2804 (9:27:49 PM): theres nothing you can do to stop me
Neo Tallgeese II (9:27:57 PM): i don't care
Afireinside2804 (9:28:17 PM): i dont care either. i have to go, im expecting a call
Neo Tallgeese II (9:28:24 PM): sarah
Neo Tallgeese II (9:28:38 PM): please, just one more chance, a week of probation to see if we can get along
Neo Tallgeese II (9:28:40 PM): please?
Afireinside2804 (9:28:56 PM): no. i dont want to get along. its over. i have to go.
Afireinside2804 (9:28:58 PM): bye
Neo Tallgeese II (9:29:08 PM): it's not over yet
Neo Tallgeese II (9:29:09 PM): bye
Afireinside2804 (9:29:55 PM): oh it is over. im not going to listen to any more of your bullshit. i dont want anything to do with you..nothing at all. im over this and im happy. just leave me alone
Neo Tallgeese II (9:30:12 PM): only if you give me a chance
Afireinside2804 (9:30:14 PM): no
Neo Tallgeese II (9:30:18 PM): come on
Afireinside2804 (9:30:20 PM): bye
Afireinside2804 (9:30:26 PM): stop trying
Neo Tallgeese II (9:30:28 PM): 1 week, and if you still hate me, i will leave forever
Afireinside2804 (9:30:44 PM): its not going to work. i dont want a week. its over now. just drop it.
Afireinside2804 (9:30:46 PM): bye
Posted at 08:36 pm by sarah2804
Monday, January 26, 2004
i love Mae!!
"Summertime"
Summertime, summertime brought me back to thinking you were mine all those times.
We laid it down and left it all behind, we were blind.
Oh, the summertime.
We could ride, we could ride.
Take my hand and watch the world go by.
Laugh or cry, well we need to try, get off the line, time to fly.
Oh, the summertime.
Go on ahead and let it fade away.
No looking back you know the past will stay.
It's you and me, we could get out of here.
Jump in and go and we could drive for years.
We could feel alive...
Here we are, here we are,
windows down we see a falling star.
Stop the car.
Waiting for nothing but our beating hearts, going far.
Oh, the summertime.
So feel the air, feel the air,
take the map and point to anywhere.
I don't care. Fingers through your hair,
the sky I've seen is blue and green.
Oh, the summertime.
Driving away, leaving it all behind.
Driving away, just driving away.
I am totally obsessed with this song! it's called 'Summertime' and its by Mae..so..if you have the chance, DOWNLOAD IT NOW!!.. :)
Posted at 09:23 pm by sarah2804
Saturday, January 24, 2004
i'm running out of titkes!
Well..tonight was fun. I ended up going to the NH/Salem game at Salem. it was awesome. last night's game wasnt that exciting and no one really showed up, so, i was expecting the same thing at tonights game. no way. it was packed and our fan section was awesome. i had so much fun. the salem kida were yealling some pretty nasty things, but, when we walked out with the 70 point win they didnt have much to say. it was great. i finally just had to switch my AIM SN. he was driving me crazy. today he started in with the,"i miss you-im still in love with you-i want you back" spill. give me a break. im so over it. neways..i better go. i have to call jason.
Posted at 11:24 pm by sarah2804
hola!!
omg! he still wont leave me alone. ggrrr. im bout to go all rambo on his ass. lol. wee. anyways...is this not the cutest picture you've ever seen? ..lol. well...i better go. see ya!!
Posted at 11:27 am by sarah2804
Friday, January 23, 2004
woohoo grapefruit!!
I love grapefruit! its so awesome. I just got home from the NH/Lanesville game. it was pretty exciting. we won. there for awhile it wasnt looking too good for us, but, cody got the game back. there are just a couple of people sho shouldnt be on the team, let alone be starting. its b.s. I have the worst cold ever. i never ever get sick, but, whoa, it hit me when i got up this morning. my head feels like its floating on a string, one side of my nose is running, the other side is stopped up, my ears are clogged, and i cant stop sneezing. its horrible. my nose is so sore. i dont know for sure what my plans are for tomorrow. ive had a couple different offers, so, who knows. i will either go to the movies or go to A La Fiesta for an 18+ dance party. hell, maybe i'll even pull of both. who knows. sunday me, becca, greg, sammy, and ashley are meeting up to go see the play at school. hey, its extra credit. so, ive been talking to this guy from new albany who is a solo artist...and..his music is so awesome. the lyrics are even better. i love it. i was supposed to meet him last friday but..yeah..i got caught up in something else. anyways..he has this awesome song called Falling and it goes:
there's something i can't explain about you that makes me weak. i lose my breath to feel your touch. i'm helpless. rescue me.
i see you and i can't speak. emotion gets the best of me. so sweetly, i dream of of you. complete me. i need you.
your eyes, your eyes. oh, how they shine. i can see the reflection of the stars in your eyes. as i gaze, as i gaze i see everything i've been searching for. catch me i'm falling.
whoa..its awesome. neways...i need to find scott. bye!!
Posted at 10:06 pm by sarah2804
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
LEAVE ME THE EF ALONE!!
omg. i cant take it anymore. i wish he'd just leave me alone. im so sick of his whining. and its all the time. so, i think im going to be all smart and just block his name on my AIM SN, and then just turn my away message off on my other SN. no, he gets a new SN and hes still talking to me. how do i get myself into these messes? i mean, if he were to just say a simple "hi, how are you?" that would be fine. i dont care about his relationshiop curse or the girl he met at McDonalds. what kind of a girl would pick up a guy at the McDonalds anyways? He sits here and just whines and complains about how much he misses me and how hes cursed in relationships. wel, what the hell do you want me to do about it? seriously. i have enough things going on right now. the last thing i need is him. i seriously think hes psycho. when i tell him im going out with friends..he wants to know who i m with, where im going, and what time i'll be back. um, no, i dont really think so. thats why i broke up with him in the first place. Hes trying to find reassurance in me and hes definately not going to get it. he rambles on and the extent of my input is either "oh", "yeah". or "i dont know". i mean seriously..take a hint. i would if someone was saying that to me. anways, to show you how psycho he is, ive decided to share a convo with you. hope you enjoy, cause i sure dont. i have to go for now, the OC is on! yes!
Neo Tallgeese II (8:39:12 PM): lol, i was shocked today
Afireinside2804 (8:39:15 PM): why?
Neo Tallgeese II (8:39:23 PM): a chick actually flirted with me
Neo Tallgeese II (8:39:24 PM): lol
Afireinside2804 (8:39:30 PM): lol
Neo Tallgeese II (8:39:49 PM): yeah, it was at mcdonald's too
Neo Tallgeese II (8:39:51 PM): lol
Neo Tallgeese II (8:40:47 PM): she was working there, i guess she was on break and she sat down a couple tables down from me and then turned towards me and started making eyes at me after a while
Afireinside2804 (8:40:54 PM): oh
Neo Tallgeese II (8:41:12 PM): yeah
Neo Tallgeese II (8:41:33 PM): lol
Neo Tallgeese II (8:41:45 PM): i probably should have talked to her
Afireinside2804 (8:41:51 PM): yeah
Neo Tallgeese II (8:42:11 PM): my ex was being a major bitch the other day
Afireinside2804 (8:42:16 PM): oh
Neo Tallgeese II (8:42:45 PM): she was trying to rub it in my face that she got a new boyfriend and i was saying i didn't care so then she was saying she might skip school with him and fuck him
Afireinside2804 (8:42:55 PM): oh thats nice
Neo Tallgeese II (8:42:58 PM): yeah
Neo Tallgeese II (8:43:21 PM): i was like "you know what? i don't give a fuck anymore. do what you want to do. have fun"
Neo Tallgeese II (8:43:35 PM): then she got all pissy
Afireinside2804 (8:43:51 PM): oh
Neo Tallgeese II (8:44:04 PM): yeah, do you think she was trying to make me jealous?
Afireinside2804 (8:44:09 PM): i dont know
Neo Tallgeese II (8:44:23 PM): neither do i, but either way, just no
Afireinside2804 (8:44:32 PM): yeah
Neo Tallgeese II (8:44:38 PM): lol, i about called her a slut
Afireinside2804 (8:44:43 PM): oh
Neo Tallgeese II (8:44:59 PM): yeah, i mean come on, only a slut would put out on like the 3rd day of dating
Neo Tallgeese II (8:45:23 PM): am i right?
Afireinside2804 (8:45:41 PM): i dont know.
Neo Tallgeese II (8:45:58 PM): ok
Neo Tallgeese II (8:46:14 PM): i mean, having sex on just the 3rd date would be bad, but the 3rd day you'd been going out is wrong
Afireinside2804 (8:46:23 PM): i dont know
Neo Tallgeese II (8:46:35 PM): why do you say that?
Afireinside2804 (8:46:41 PM): cause i really dont know
Neo Tallgeese II (8:46:45 PM): okay
Neo Tallgeese II (8:47:09 PM): i'm sad
Afireinside2804 (8:47:18 PM): ok. why/
Neo Tallgeese II (8:47:45 PM): i met this girl that i REALLY like and we hit it off really well and she likes me a lot too, but she's going to be moving to italy in about a month
Afireinside2804 (8:47:51 PM): oh
Neo Tallgeese II (8:48:04 PM): yeah
Neo Tallgeese II (8:48:24 PM): lol, my curse strikes again, i actually find another girl that i like, but there's no chance of a relationship
Afireinside2804 (8:48:29 PM): oh
Neo Tallgeese II (8:48:42 PM): yeah, i must be cursed
Afireinside2804 (8:48:53 PM): maybe
Neo Tallgeese II (8:49:10 PM): ever since brittany left me, my love life has been terrible
Afireinside2804 (8:49:15 PM): oh
Neo Tallgeese II (8:49:32 PM): yeah
Neo Tallgeese II (8:49:48 PM): i thought things were starting to look up with you, and then that went to shit
Neo Tallgeese II (8:49:53 PM): and the process keeps repeating
Afireinside2804 (8:50:31 PM): oh
Neo Tallgeese II (8:51:01 PM): in the last like 3 months or so, i've gone out with 6 girls
Neo Tallgeese II (8:51:10 PM): and the longest relationship was just over a month
Neo Tallgeese II (8:51:16 PM): for me, that's horrible
Neo Tallgeese II (8:51:39 PM): before that, the average length of my relations was like 6 or 7 months
Neo Tallgeese II (8:52:05 PM): now the average is like a week
Afireinside2804 (8:52:23 PM): oh
Neo Tallgeese II (8:52:57 PM): yeah
Neo Tallgeese II (8:53:17 PM): i don't know what to do about it
Afireinside2804 (8:53:40 PM): oh
Neo Tallgeese II (8:54:33 PM): if this keeps up, i'll end up marrying anything i can get. even if i don't find her attractive or love her, just so i can have kids and have something to love
Afireinside2804 (8:54:42 PM): oh
Neo Tallgeese II (8:55:18 PM): yeah
Neo Tallgeese II (8:56:16 PM): i yearn for someone that i can give my love to, but i keep being denied that. so, i'm willing to do just about anything to get someone. i think i'd even adopt a kid just so i could have someone to love
Neo Tallgeese II (8:56:34 PM): but even then, i'd still be devoid of companionship
Afireinside2804 (8:56:46 PM): oh
Neo Tallgeese II (8:57:20 PM): i've been thinking about things like this a lot lately
Afireinside2804 (8:57:34 PM): yeah
Afireinside2804 (8:57:36 PM): i have to go
Afireinside2804 (8:57:44 PM): its time for the OC
Neo Tallgeese II (8:57:51 PM): ok
Neo Tallgeese II (8:58:34 PM): did you even pay attention to what i was talking about?
Afireinside2804 (8:58:43 PM): yes
Posted at 09:06 pm by sarah2804
Saturday, January 17, 2004
insomnia
Insomnia..i think i have it. Amber and i went and rented movie and i barely made it through the first one. i was so sleepy and i couldnt even keep my eyes open. so, after she leaves, i go straight to bed...only to just stare up at the ceiling. i cannot fall asleep. i even feel tired right now but i know i wont be able to sleep. I feel sick. not only stomach sick, but like, conscious sick too. i'm worry myself sick over this whole thing. what happened wasnt bad in any way..but i'm freaking out over it. its so hard just to act like nothing ever happened. i do know one thing, i will never be able to look at _ _ _ _ _ the same way again. i think thats what makes me the most sick. i feel like i have absolutely no one to talk to who will understand any of this. there are 2 main people who i usually go to in an emergency, but just my luck both of those people are involved. i think about calling one of them, but, i just dont think i could tell that person what i really feel. its just a big mess. i dont know how i get myself into these messes. i'm so disappointed over this one person and its just making me sick. i really dont know what to do. i cant just let it all blow over. i dont even want to look at _ _ _ _ _ right now, let alone tell them how i feel. i just feel betrayed i guess.
Posted at 10:51 pm by sarah2804
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