Insomnia..i think i have it. Amber and i went and rented movie and i barely made it through the first one. i was so sleepy and i couldnt even keep my eyes open. so, after she leaves, i go straight to bed...only to just stare up at the ceiling. i cannot fall asleep. i even feel tired right now but i know i wont be able to sleep. I feel sick. not only stomach sick, but like, conscious sick too. i'm worry myself sick over this whole thing. what happened wasnt bad in any way..but i'm freaking out over it. its so hard just to act like nothing ever happened. i do know one thing, i will never be able to look at _ _ _ _ _ the same way again. i think thats what makes me the most sick. i feel like i have absolutely no one to talk to who will understand any of this. there are 2 main people who i usually go to in an emergency, but just my luck both of those people are involved. i think about calling one of them, but, i just dont think i could tell that person what i really feel. its just a big mess. i dont know how i get myself into these messes. i'm so disappointed over this one person and its just making me sick. i really dont know what to do. i cant just let it all blow over. i dont even want to look at _ _ _ _ _ right now, let alone tell them how i feel. i just feel betrayed i guess.